Don't let this memory fade away...

Hello!

Well, it sure has been a while, hasn’t it?

I guess I’ll tell you what has happened with me. I cut myself till about the second week of December, I believe. Then, I told my mom, because my cuts were getting deeper and I was getting even more scared of what I could  do to myself. She was sad, just like I thought. Telling her was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but it made me feel like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I stopped cutting too. That’s not to say I didn’t from then on, because that would be a lie. I don’t do it often at all though, which is good, I think.

I guess I was just thinking of this blog and decided I would update it, since I haven’t in a while and my last post was terrible, in my opinion.

I would be lying though if I said I’m “Happy” now, because right now, I’m anything but that. I just feel so helpless right now. I feel like I have to rely on others for everything and it sucks.

My whole life is beginning to suck again.

It was great for a while, I became more social, have two really close friends I can talk to, and other friends that, while I’m not as close to them as I am to my best friends, I can still talk to them if I really need to. I also started to just feel like everything was going right and I was having a really good time with life. It was really nice.

It’s slowly starting to change again. Happiness never lasts, does it?

Hopefully I’ll end up feeling better later, but my bad moods have been lasting longer, and becoming more frequent. I just hope I don’t resort to things I’ve done before. At least I have a concert to look forward to.

Signed,

Victora