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December 2 2:57pm

02. December 2010

I’m scared.

I feel like I have no drive to do anything anymore.

I feel like all I live for is to do things that make me want to rip my heart out of my chest and just end it all.

I hate this feeling so much. It’s a feeling that even cutting won’t help.

And I have no one to help me.

I have no way to get this feeling out. I can’t tell my parents because they would freak and it would be too much. I also just don’t think my only friend would be up to hearing it.

Either that or I’m scared that they wouldn’t care or would think I’m over reacting, and it would drive me to do something I would regret, or drive me to do something that, if I lasted I would regret.

I don’t know what to do.

I’m scared of myself and what I’m feeling.

I’m so scared.

Signed,

Victoria